Blogher New York

I've been neglecting this blog a lot lately! It's been hard to find time to keep my other blog updated, be a Mom, be a wife... and somehow vacuum at least once a month. Eesh. I am leaving here pretty soon to go to New York. Without Jeff. Without Tristan. Without Chunky. I'm heading to the popular Blogher blogging conference and will be gone forever. Or at least it will feel like forever I am sure. I haven't spent one night away from Tristan in over 400 days. To be more specific, 478 nights. That's over a year of peekin in on him every night to make sure he's got a blanket on, somewhere around 2,000 diaper changes, a billion kisses and nuzzles and not enough hugs. I don't know what I will do without my little man for 5 nights. Ugh! I am anxious already. I had a million things to do today but I just couldn't seem to get any of them done. I just wanted to play with Tristan and be with him every moment. So we blew bubbles, and went on a bike ride, and chased Chunky, we had snacks and vacuumed.. and when he napped I worked my butt off. I am trying to get in all I can before I leave. I am such a sap, I know. I've worried about every sneeze for so long now I can't help it. A million things keep going through my head, "Will whoever is watching him hold him if he cries?" "Will he throw fits or behave?" "Will he get enough love?" "Will his teeth get brushed (I hope so, that'd be a step up from right now ;)" "Will he get a good nap?" and of course the dreaded, "What if..." I have to keep reminding myself that it will be OK, I love that little booger so much. That being said, I'm still really excited to go. I just tried to figure out my schedule tonight and my head hurts! So much to do, so little time. Really wish Jeff was going, he is so much better at this than I am. Anyway-stay tuned for updates from New York :)