I think I even muttered, "I don't like this kid!" a couple times.
Of course, now that it's many hours later, he is sweetly asleep in his bed and I am reflecting on the day, I feel so bad. I shouldn't have been so grumpy towards that little guy. Tristan is such a sweet, sweet baby. He is very good natured and likes to laugh a lot. He spent half his afternoon playing with Chunky and sharing spoonfuls of peanut butter, helping me "pick up" the living room, playing hide and seek and bringing me every toy he had. Even though I wasn't exactly Mother of the Year earlier in the day, he totally forgave me and gave me a million hugs and kisses. I suppose that is what they mean when we are admonished to be "like a little child."
My world would fall apart if he weren't in it, he brings so much joy to my life every single day. I am so lucky to have a happy, healthy, handsome little man that calls me Mama. Next time he is being whiney I have resolved to take a deep breath and have a little more patience, even if it's frustrating. Tristan deserves it. He deserves a Mom who will be patient while he learns new things... even if it's gravity and it requires a cup of cheerios. Twenty. Different. Times. He's got to learn about that somehow, right?
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It's very humbling sometimes to reflect on your day and realize you should have been more patient etc. with your kiddos. It's difficult to remember to "live in the moment" and enjoy the good and the bad. I'll let you know when I have it figured out!
Mommy guilt is hard. But good for the reminder to just keep trying. Once they're asleep or even right before an apology and a big kiss and squeeze usually help me, until they hit you in the face and then I wait until they are actually sleeping to have a ' nice moment' being a mom is hard, but you are doing it well.
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